Archive for July, 2005


The Three Variable Funny Test

July 30, 2005

the Cutting Edge

(60% dark, 43% spontaneous, 16% vulgar)
your humor style:

Your humor’s mostly innocent and off-the-cuff, but somehow there’s something slightly menacing about you. Part of your humor is making people a little uncomfortable, even if the things you say aren’t in and of themselves confrontational. You probably have a very dry delivery, or are seriously over-the-top. Your type is the most likely to appreciate a good insult and/or broken bone and/or very very fat person dancing.

PEOPLE LIKE YOU: David Letterman – John Belushi

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 74% on dark
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You scored higher than 39% on spontaneous
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You scored higher than 9% on vulgar

Link: The 3 Variable Funny Test written by jason_bateman on OkCupid Free Online Dating

updated link

July 29, 2005

The link to Mosaic Nashville’s website under Places of Note now links to the actual website.  There have been a lot of changes here in our journey.  Due to those changes that link has not linked to anything in quite some time.  A new day has dawned.  Check out the project



July 29, 2005

I’m currently getting my face rocked off by Dallas Willard [thanks for the reading suggestion Chris ].  I’m making my way through The Divine Conspiracy .  This morning I finished up chapter 2, "Gospels of Sin Management" and  have begun chapter 3,  "What Jesus Knew:  Our God-Bathed World."   I can read no further without processing something, anything, because part of me feels like I’ve had the actual good news about who Jesus is presented to me for the first time, ever.  And, as I suppose it should be, I need a moment to catch my breath. 

We who profess Christianity will believe what is constantly presented to us as gospel.  If gospels of sin management are preached they are what Christians will believe.  And those in the wider world who reject those gospels will believe that what they have rejected is the gospel of Jesus Christ himself–when, in fact, they haven’t yet heard it

And so we have the result noted: the resources of God’s kingdom remain detached from human life.  There is no gospel for human life and Christian discipleship, just one for death or one for social action.  The souls of human beings are left to shrivel and die on the plains of life because they are not introduced into the environment for which they were made, the living kingdom of eternal life. [58]

Relevance to Culture is Not Optional. I have experienced first hand in the past 9 months how the gospels of sin management are far from relevant to the human experience; both the gospel from the left and the gospel from the right (social action and life after death).  The only way I know this to be inherently true, not just philosophically true, is through relationships with people who do not follow Jesus.  Good people, loving people, who hate the non-sense of the Christian message.  In Nashville, the gospel from the right is represented by most of the over 7,000 churches in the city, and as a result personal faith is detached from daily living.  One can believe in Jesus and not pay attention to a word he said, and apparently that is enough to receive the proverbial seal of approval.  People are ready to receive the benefits of Jesus’ death, but unwilling to step into his life of transformation.  This is so because a life of transformation is presented as the obliteration of all that is "wrong" with us, not our participation in God’s daily activity of interacting with his creation.  Sin management is a natural result of intimacy with God.  And intimacy with God is relevant to all cultures of all time.

And his presence is precisely what the word heaven or, more accurately, the heavens in plural, conveys in the biblical record as well as through much of Christian history…The "heavens" are always there with you no matter what, and the "first heaven," in biblical terms, is precisely the atmosphere or air that surrounds your body…But it is precisely from the space immediately around us that God watches and God acts…To be born "from above," in New Testament language, means to be interactively joined with a dynamic, unseen system of divine reality in the midst of which all of humanity moves about–whether it knows it or not…But do we actually believe this?  I mean, are we ready automatically to act as if we stand here and now and always in the presence of the great being…who fills and overflows all space, including the atmosphere around our body? [67-68]

That is a God in whom I can take stock.  That is an experience of which I want to be apart.  The vision of a God that permeates the atmosphere, interacting with and watching his creation with great joy is what I long to see when I hear the name of Jesus.  It is in being "interactively joined with a dynamic, unseen system of divine reality" that I can see my own life being transformed.  I know well enough that the gospels of sin management are not relevant, not only to the cultures of the world, but to me, personally, as a part of those cultures.  Exciting responsibility seems like a oxymoron to an extent, yet that is what I feel when I think of participating in this "dynamic unseen system of divine reality" as a result of intimacy with my creator. 

"And eternal life is this: to know you, the one true God, and him whom you sent, Yeshua the Messiah."

                                                                                                                                                                                                                           [John 17:3]



Revelation of the Month

July 28, 2005

I think my way out of feeling. 

Initially, like everyone, when an event occurs that gives rise to emotion, I feel.  Then I take that feeling and put it away for later when I can think about it.  When I get around to thinking about it, I will ask myself whether or not it was ridiculous to feel that way, whether it is hurt or joy or anger.   After considering every possibility, which generally negates the logic of all emotion, I will chuck those feelings into the pile with all the other feelings that have been there for years.  Unfortunately for me, those feelings aren’t biodegradable and therefore pose a mental health hazard to me and a whole lot of other people.

Learning to feel,



The Blur of July

July 28, 2005

It’s Thursday morning, 6:44 am, and I’ve been awake since 4:44 am.  Nothing on the mind really, just woke up wired.  By the way, I don’t have to be anywhere.  It’s my day off.  So here I am in Panera having a bagel and drinking green tea, thinking, reading, doing a gut check to see if I still want to follow Jesus.  The answer is a painfully joyous yes.  He and I have to have these conversations every once in a while.

July is almost over, and I’m not sure what happened in it.  Well, I’m sure I do remember, I just can’t believe the speed at which things happened.  I got back from Thailand in late June, which seems like eons ago.  My mom and cousin came to visit me for four days over the 4th of July.  I saw Charlie Daniels play "The Devil Went Down to Georgia". I’ve been working.  I’ve been in planning meetings.  I’ve participated in bringing two communities of Jesus followers together (Mosaic and Mosaic).  I’ve had a friend visiting from LA for a week.  My favorite person to work with got fired.  I saw Nickel Creek play through their entire upcoming album before it’s release.  And do I even need to mention the blazing heat and water saturated air that slay me daily?  A lot of things are changing in general, which gives a chaotic feeling to things even if things aren’t really all that chaotic.  Oh yeah, and I took myself on a date to see Batman Begins, which rocked my soul [side note on that: face your fears and live].   

Today is day number one of two days off in a row, and the first of three total this week.  They are all much needed. 


In Good Company

July 21, 2005

Room 4 Rent 4 One Lady: from

I have a room available , right in the central Greenhills-Nashville
area, close to Vandy, Belmont, Lipscomb, etc., and in a Very nice,
wooded neighborhood, w/a large yard, trees, and garden.
the rent is $425 monthly, + deposit + 1/2 bills.
I am looking for a clean, responsible, compatible, Lady, (sorry, no
gents,) who loves music and will enjoy, and occaisonally help care
for, my one sweet kitty. No other pets please.
this is a nice older home on a quiet, dead end street, just off of hillsboro blvd., and 2 – 3 blocks from davis kidd or wild oats. there’s cable, h.s.internet, dishwasher, and washer & dryer.
Are you a sound sleeper? I sometimes play a little late nite instrumental music. Also, please, no
smoking, or heavy drinkers, druggers, christians. Good references required !


Sticky Bits

July 11, 2005

*this is a response to an email I received from a friend who is at a point of struggle in his/her journey with God; who is not always in some sort of struggle?  if we weren’t in a struggle, we wouldn’t be on a journey*

Fresh. New. Vivid. Original. Primal. First.

"I know nothing."

If you know nothing, friend, then you are a blank slate.  And whoever may write whatever they please, or you can decide who gets to write.  God wants to write.  He wants to write about who he is, not who you always thought he was.  I’m in the process as well.  "Knowing nothing", questioning everything, waiting for the pieces to fall together.  Can we come to a God we always thought we knew as a blank slate and allow him to write about who he really is?  Will we always have on us the residue of former teachings? 

I don’t know how much you cook, but here is an analogy:  when you shallow fry or grill meat on a stovetop in a pan there are always these little sticky bits on the pan after you take the meat out.  Some look burnt, others are just brown in color.  There is usually some oil left in the pan, too.  A lot people immediately put the dirty pan in dishwater to soak off all of the "junk" they dread scrubbing out of the pan later.  What they don’t realize is that those bits hold so much flavor.  All those bits need is something new added to them, something fresh, like a really good wine.  When a good wine is added to a hot pan the heat and liquid lift the sticky bits off of the pan and then blend with the wine and oil, creating a rich, flavorful sauce. 

The faith we grew up with, the things we were taught, now seem like just a bunch of sticky bits that we are confused about, and we don’t know what to do with them.  We would love to just scratch everything and start from the very beginning, but it’s just not possible, because we remember.  So what then do we do with the sticky bits, because there is truth there, there is rich flavor there?  We must allow God to add his best wine, that we may taste the full flavor of all we have known and be amazed at the new flavors we had no idea about.   

Forget what you think you are "supposed to know" and start talking to Jesus about what he wants you to know. 

So what does this mean for Faith, Hope, Love and Peace?  You won’t get the answer from me, because it comes to all of us in a way we will best understand.  Our God is personal, and he deals with each of us in a unique and specific way because he is our creator.  All I can tell you is don’t be frustrated with the sticky bits of Faith, Hope, Love and Peace, but let Jesus’ wine infuse them with new flavor.