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One Year, One City

October 5, 2005

Today marks my one year anniversary of living here in Nashville.  This
is the longest time I’ve spent in one place in the last two years.  I
followed up college with a summer in Minneapolis , then found myself at home for about 9 months.  I left to spend that summer in Los Angeles  in early June of 2004.  The following October 5, 2004 I moved to Nashville, Music City.

I’m getting the feeling that my restlessness is going to be something
I’m going to have to deal with.  It’s something I’m proud of and hate
all at the same time.  I felt it creeping in on me two weeks ago.  I
love my job, but I don’t love monotony.  It occurred to me that my job
was becoming monotonous.  I can’t stand feeling like a machine.  And
when that happens something deep inside me moves to just below the
surface of my soul.  It knocks softly at first, but gradually gets
louder until I have to answer: it’s the urge to run. 

Just so I know, I will not be running.  At least not
geographically.  No, I have to work it out.  I have to stay and
discover why my soul gets restless. Why I always feel the need to leave
and begin again.  Bob, a co-worker of mine, would tell me that it’s
because I’m an Aries, the youngest of the astrological signs.  I will
therefore always have a need to begin again, always remaining ‘young’
and struggling to become wise.  One who will always learn the hard
way. 

Good thing I’ve got Jesus to counter-act Mars 🙂  Here’s what I think I am about to learn: there is a way to run without moving. 

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