Archive for December, 2005

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Mysterious Girl in Corner

December 29, 2005

Last Tuesday evening I had the immense privilege of having coffee with one hmb.  Having spent Christmas with her family in Coshocton, Ohio, she continued to see as many friends in the Midwest as possible, post holiday.  That list of people included me, and we were able share some good conversation and a cup of coffee at Soma Coffeehouse in Bloomington. 

Heather and I share a dream.  And that dream is to be the mysterious girl in the corner of the room.  There’s something that she and I both do in order to try and achieve this dream.  Before we go into a social situation we give ourselves a pep talk.  Well, actually, it’s really an anti-pep talk.  She and I did improv comedy at Taylor together.  One thing I noticed about those who ended up trying out for Rice Pilaf was that they were always encouraged by someone or some group of friends who told them that they would be good at it simply because they were funny in everyday situations.  Funny on the fly, sharp witted, never to be out done.  That’s us.  Not because we want to be comics, but because we already are.  It’s in our fashioning.  It’s so natural that we just can’t help it.

The anti-pep talk goes a little something like this, at least for me:

Now Adria, don’t draw attention to yourself tonight.  You don’t need to be loud, you don’t need to make everything funny.  Just people watch and think.  It’s okay if people don’t think that you are fun, or funny. 

So many evenings have ended with me lying in my bed and thinking about what a moron I had been at whatever gathering had just ended.  I was too loud.  Too funny.  Too honest, sometimes.  What is it in me that makes me do this?  I wouldn’t describe myself as attention starved or anything.  It’s just a part of who I am, even if it is a part of me that is a little broken somewhere.  And I’m okay with that.  That doesn’t mean I won’t keep giving myself anti-pep talks.  It doesn’t mean I won’t stop trying to accomplish the dream of being mysterious girl in corner.  It simply means that I’m at peace with God and who I am becoming.  Who he created me to be.  Part of that person is mysterious girl in corner.  Part of that person is just plain hilarious.   

hmb, here’s to our dream of being  quiet souls (which we already are) with an appreciation for our Father’s sense of humor. 

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Sexy on the Inside

December 15, 2005

Thank you Rob Bell for this and so much more. You make me want to study and talk to people for the rest of my life.

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La Bodega’s 100th Post

December 7, 2005

I suppose this is a milestone of sorts. I also suppose I could have reached this point a lot sooner.  It has taken me almost 2 full years to finally reach 100 posts to La Bodega.  To celebrate, I just want to write about why this place has existed and why it will exists in the future.

I started La Bodega in January of 2004 as I began to discover this new way of communicating with not only those who I know, but with the entire world.  I began to write while my soul was in a place of despair and as life moved forward I continued writing as a means to find healing.  I posted once in January, twice in April and once in May of that year.  It wasn’t until June that La Bodega really took off with consistent posts.  That summer I moved to Los Angeles to be a part of Mosaic.  Many people were interested in what was going on out there and instead of doing a mass email thing I decided to just document some of my summer at La Bodega and people could check the site at their own convenience.  As I read back through some of those early blogs I’m reminded of the life change that took place in those few brief months and how it has shaped me. 

My intentions were to keep writing about life as a church planter, culture at large and the everyday ins and outs of coffeeshop life.  I found, however, a hesitation in writing certain details or telling certain stories having to do with people I was getting to know.  Trying to be a responsible blogger I concluded that it probably isn’t super ethical to write about people  I was getting to know without their permission.  Therefore, La Bodega lacks many interesting, hilarious and thought-provoking stories simply to protect the privacy of those involved.  Perhaps at some point I will gain permission to write these stories.  For now I will treasure them and ponder them in my heart.  Or tell you personally if you ask about them : )   

Today I spent some time with a good friend and was inspired to continue more consistantly with blogging, using it as a portal into the mystic .  I’m not sure what the next 100 posts will hold.  I am sure that life will provide plenty of topics.  I only hope I’m paying attention to the details and that La Bodega is a place where the living God is honored. 

Of the last 100 posts, here are my top five favorites, for your reading pleasure:

5. Rock and Roll Circus
4. Everyone is a Musician
3. Diet Coke with Lime: A Review
2. Janet Jackson: Child of God
1. Sticky Bits

Thanks for reading.  I’ve enjoyed the journey with you.  May it continue. 

Shalem…

Lenore